Just came back from work. We need to do stock-take today, so a few cashiers from upstairs came and helped us out. Me, the pig and a few staffs are settling in- and out-patients while others do the stock-take. Whole pharmacy is like morning market, so noisy. I'm so tired today, don't know whether it is because of stock-take or that my period is coming. I'm having backache since this morning.
He said he's gonna go away maybe around middle of next month. I certainly hope so. I mean, what the hell was I thinking? To do it again and again even though my heart told me not to do that again but my body just react to it. I feel so awful. As if it's not going to end. He kept saying that he won't do that again but the next day it's still the same. Does he think that I'm some kind of a toy or what that he can use when he's boring?
Though I don't like him at all, and most of the times feel that he's very annoying, irritating and disgusting, but when he said that he's going away, I feel a little bit sad. Partly because I'll have to pay more which I certainly don't like about it! And partly because, I'm a bit jealous (of what? I won't tell.)
Sometimes, when I'm reading a book, I fell so in love with the characters, I always feel like I am the main character itself already. Last time, when I'm reading Twilight Saga, I feel as if I am Bella. The girl which has the vampire character in herself even before she was changed. Now, I feel that as if I'm Elena. Elena is a girl that even her purpose is pure and harmless, but others will think that she always wants everything to be revolved around her. Only that I have my own Stefan, but without Damon to torn me apart. What I mean is, I don't like others to "overlook" me. I would like myself to be in the center of the universe. When they "overlook" me, even though I have a boyfriend already, or that I'm their best friend, that is still not enough for me! I'll be jealous! Not satisfy by what I already have.
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